Why I still love you?

Sometimes I want to cry, to scream, to do anything I can to keep you with me. I dont know what was my mistake that I never could keep you for a long time! You slip like a fish through my hands, run away from me and I have to sit there and watch that whole my life is leaving. It's so hard, so hard, you even cant imagine it.
I dont even know why I still love you, after all you put me through, I must hate you, despise you, but I'm still in love like a crazy. But no! I know why I love you. When you are with me, when you are serious, you are someone else. You are a real man, someone I love to be with him and can feel the real happiness. That feeling I have when I'm with you, even if I'm not really with you or if we really haven't met yet is different. It's something real! If I try so hard to be with you is because of that feeling, something that I have never ever felt with anyone else. Doesn't matter if he was beside me, I felt nothing, he was miles away from me.

Why I fell in love

A month ago I thought I knew your biggest flaw, that flaw which make things for you harder. I thought you aren't strong. I told you that but I changed my mind. You are strong my dear, very very strong. Who dare to go to a courthouse and say "Hi, I'm going to Iran". You are not only strong, you are brave, fearless and very intent. You say you dont know what you did that I fell in love with you, I tell you now. Your daring was very strange for me. I thought this guy want to come to my country and bring me with him, just like a fairytale. It was a good start for you. It's very nice for a woman when sees a man fights for her. One day I found myself staring at your pic and thinking wow! I love this guy!

Our year

Do you remember 18 Jun? the day we started? It's near a year and when I see it I can tell you it was full of tears and scars. I'm trying to count my good times. Let me see it was about 2months in summer, 12 days in winter and a month in spring. Other days I spent bad times. What about you?I know it's been a year of mistakes and breakups.

Dear you

Hey. I know it's weird but sometimes I cant  talk to you directly. I can feel it when you dont want to talk to me. I know you very well, your feelings, your reactions to things, almost everything. I have seen your flaws, your mistakes, your manners, when you treat me like a princess, when you treat me like trash.